november 6 2024

The election happened, and I just feel numb. My heart is with my queer and trans friends, Palestinians, student protesters, and everyone who will be effected by what may come next. Many people have already commented on its outcome much better than I could have, so all I can do is turn inward at this moment.

I need to make a new meet the artist drawing because my ex and I are no longer together. I'm not sure if my numbness caused the breakup or if it came after. Maybe it has been a cycle for some time. There are still so many feelings there.

I've been wanting to push some people away because I feel burnt out by all the noise and doing so much labor on behalf of others. I think this is the time to radically change my life, starting from acknowledging my anger, my desire, and my will. My unwillingness to confront people definitely affected my breakup and my current disatisfaction. I've started training for a 5K again, and I hope this journey can help me access that fire within me.

Thank you for reading this blog post even though it's much more somber than usual. I hope love will save us all. Be well.